Zeenat Afzal: I’m Back

I’m Back! Hello! If this is your first time on my blog, then hello and welcome. If not then wuddduuupppp, guys! Hope you all had a lovely holiday (‘hiatus’ if you’re at university), and that you were able to start 2017 the way you had planned. If your holiday was not so lovely, it’s okay; I’m glad you’re back in an environment in which you’re comfortable.

You got this.

Sadly, I haven’t really had much planned – or structured – regarding a welcome back post, so I’m just gonna narrow my drivel down to three main points: Firstly, I’d like to take a brief moment to remember those that didn’t make it. We’ve lost souls to natural causes, to mental illness, and even to the decisions of governments. If you’ve lost someone: well done for staying strong. And to those that didn’t think they’d make it, I’m proud of you.

Secondly, Winter can seriously take its toll on us hooman beans, so don’t feel disheartened if you’re lacking motivation or struggling with basic routines. Even if you feel that reading this is a bit of a challenge, come back to it later. Be kind to yourselves because nobody will learn how to love you more than you do.

Thirdly, I love my mama. I just wanted to put that out there. I understand some people don’t love their mums…but I do. She had a lot of involvement in my empowerment over the holidays and has supported me every step of the way. I struggle to maintain relationships, even with my mum, so I’m quite proud at how far we’ve come as a unit.

I’ve realised that I am worth far more than I’ve believed for these last few years, and I mean far more to people than the system likes to have me believe. So, this paragraph is to let you guys know that I am not playing any games this year. I will not be unconditionally patient, and I will not be sparing people my compassion where it is wasted. So, thank you mama – my Queen – for teaching me to know my worth and add tax.

Having said that, though, I’m willing to sit down and help people with getting educated on social and racial politics, and provide help and information where it is needed. I’m not that cold.

Peace, love and sugar puffs

Zeenat x